Don’t know what I will encounter.
I can anticipate, but not know.
I can expect and may receive.
I can grow or die.
This light, this heat, the air on my skin,
You are soft.
Is this moment forever?
Look here, not there.
Reaching for you, but you are gone.
With you wherever you are.
Are you gone?
Walk a little further.
Your heart is strong.
Mine is strong.
Walk with me
2017 was an incredible and tumultuous year for me. I started a new and completely different chapter in my life. Everything in my personal life has changed beyond what I ever thought was possible, for the good mostly, but not without immense pain. I discovered dark truths about people I’d considered family for over a decade, and chose to be true to myself and to what I know is right.
I went into a bubble of isolation from most people and from my work for the past year just getting through the day-to-day and dealing with the grieving.
I’ve been in survival mode.
I never thought I could live through the loss I did last year, but I am trusting that love and truth will triumph in the end and I’m ready and to move forward in my life and in my work.
o5/01 – Grasping ©Gina DeGideo
All year I’ve been looking at my unprocessed film and fresh packs of photo paper, knowing I need to get back, so it’s time for New Years Resolutions!
Finishing my Along the Way film processing and printing
Complete my writing and book for the project
Exhibit Along the Way as a solo show
Get back to blogging regularly
Process my new 4×5 film and keep shooting
Resolve Flex series printing
I’m taking everyday photography to a new place, via my Holga and some 120 B&W film. I feel like my true everyday shooting can happen in this way. I’m working on accepting the gift the universe gives on my walks with Holga (she is appropriately named). Here’s a lil peek at what I’ve been up to…
I remember fragments of this day with family building the brick wall in our family’s front yard, 1993, Age 6.
If you are a photographer like me, you must get tired of the monotonous questions, “where is your camera?” at family functions and questions of if you can take pictures of peoples’ babies or weddings or birthday parties (no offense family and friends 🙂 ). Firstly, let me say that I do enjoy looking at old photographs and being able to create and imagine a sense of the world I was too young to remember, or from a time before my existence. Memories are things that are intrinsically tied to visual images and photographs. Perhaps I am an oddball photographer, but it seems to me that the human psyche relies much too heavily on this photographic form for memory recognition.
This cubby made the perfect hiding spot for toys, lemonade stand profits, and other important items throughout my childhood, 1993-2011. This photograph was taken 1 day after the forclosure of my family home.
I know as a photographer, that’s not what I should say. I believe people expect me to say the camera’s image is a holy form of reality, while in fact it can never even be that… reality. Simply, it is a reference to a particular reality; one in which only a mechanical box can interpret. While this “box” can be a magical tool with endless other benefits, I believe it cannot replace the human body/mind experience.
I much so prefer to live in the moment rather than to struggle to capture every detail on film. I aim to feel the breeze on my skin, to create a sensory memory of the place’s smell, and to see through my eye’s lens. There is something much more spiritual and simplistic about this way of life; a unique experience that cannot be confined or recreated to reflect one 2-D perspective.
In the end will we have our memories, or the tangible objects to represent them?
Lil’ Man does some pretty radical installations that make me smile and I just cannot help but to photograph. He (and Spiderman) is my muse. Here’s the latest in Marvel art. Coming Soon: The fantasic and hilarious images from a 4 year old with a digital camera. Stay tuned!
My first indoor gallery exhibition opened 4/20/11 at NSAA (New School for Arts & Academics) in Tempe, AZ. It was exciting and I was happy it all came together. Thanks to the other 5 artists involved in the show, Kathryn Lew, Virginia Martinez, Glory Shim, Valerie Echeveria, and Margaret Hernandez. I think we rocked it!
Also especially THANK YOU to my supportive family for coming to see the work you are all a part of.
- Reminence of Home
This work was very personal for me and dealt with the loss of my childhood home and the visual memories I still have connected to this place I’ve always considered “home”.
Check out my artist book Home published at Blurb.
Bookmaking is a fun and very creative process I look forward to learning more about during my stay ASU. Sometimes though, it is nice to let someone publish it for you… this is where Blurb.com comes in. What a great resource for writers and art enthusiasts. Make your work tangible!