Don’t know what I will encounter.
I can anticipate, but not know.
I can expect and may receive.
I can grow or die.
This light, this heat, the air on my skin,
You are soft.
Is this moment forever?
Look here, not there.
Reaching for you, but you are gone.
With you wherever you are.
Are you gone?
Walk a little further.
Your heart is strong.
Mine is strong.
Walk with me
2017 was an incredible and tumultuous year for me. I started a new and completely different chapter in my life. Everything in my personal life has changed beyond what I ever thought was possible, for the good mostly, but not without immense pain. I discovered dark truths about people I’d considered family for over a decade, and chose to be true to myself and to what I know is right.
I went into a bubble of isolation from most people and from my work for the past year just getting through the day-to-day and dealing with the grieving.
I’ve been in survival mode.
I never thought I could live through the loss I did last year, but I am trusting that love and truth will triumph in the end and I’m ready and to move forward in my life and in my work.
o5/01 – Grasping ©Gina DeGideo
All year I’ve been looking at my unprocessed film and fresh packs of photo paper, knowing I need to get back, so it’s time for New Years Resolutions!
Finishing my Along the Way film processing and printing
Complete my writing and book for the project
Exhibit Along the Way as a solo show
Get back to blogging regularly
Process my new 4×5 film and keep shooting
Resolve Flex series printing
“Found” ©Gina DeGideo
Years ago, I made this photograph on a family day trip up to small rural town in northern Arizona for my nephew’s fourth birthday party. My son, along with a couple of his cousins and I, ventured down a pathway leading from the party for a quick walk. I carried my small point and shoot digital camera to take some snaps of the boys by the creek. I had remembered that down this path was also an amazing tree house my cousins and I had grown up climbing and playing in.
Just minutes into our hike on the trail, often used as a roadway for everyone in town to ride quads, jeeps, and dirt bikes, I stumbled upon this completely flattened and decomposing rabbit in the sand. The animal’s fascinating form, preservation, cleanliness, fluffiness, and unfortunate situation demanded my full attention. I responded to my found object by photographing it (how could I not) including my foot. Its perfect face and form make this one of my favorite photographs to date.
I finally was afforded the one-way opportunity to be a passenger, instead of a driver, on our most recent road trip from Arizona to California. I am a natural observer of the land and I love to look! It has always interested me how while passing through the world at such a high rate of speed your eye creates a visual pattern of objects in your view. You know this to be true if you’ve ever driven by a cornfield in a car. When passing through the desert, my gaze is always focused on the far-away mountains and the curious things I can see in the distance. On the trip I found myself photographing with my cell phone. What was revealed were the patterns, shapes, colors, and alien objects that exist in the middle of nowhere. Looking at all of the images together worked even better to affirm the idea of a deconstructed view and an abstracted landscape.
I found my spirit animal in the gallery window the other day…
Poor little guy, but where would photography be without dead birds? I don’t know, so I did what any other photographer would do and recorded this immediately with my phone.
I’m taking everyday photography to a new place, via my Holga and some 120 B&W film. I feel like my true everyday shooting can happen in this way. I’m working on accepting the gift the universe gives on my walks with Holga (she is appropriately named). Here’s a lil peek at what I’ve been up to…